Even here, I walk in love.

When you hear Stage 3 Cancer, what are your first thoughts? Wow, hope they will be ok! Man what is the survival rate? What does that mean for treatment? Stage 1 and 2 people think ok not too bad we have got this, stage 3 and 4 sounds more like oh no. SO that is why I am thankful I found out I have stage 3 cancer at the same time that I found out I am NED, no evidence of disease!! You may be wondering why we are just finding out now what stage my cancer is, well with cancer only being found in my lymph nodes we had to wait till after chemo and after surgery for them to be able to tell how many lymph nodes were involved. From there they are able to stage the cancer. No I don’t think that I would have faced this any differently but I think hearing those words stage 3 are scary! Maybe it would have affected the way people reacted to my cancer diagnosis, especially my family. Would Emma have wanted to come home from school and take the year off, probably. Did I want that, NO. But I can understand hearing stage 3 she may have made that choice. As we have said all along this is a speed bump in life not a road block! ANY cancer diagnosis no matter the stage is scary. Just hearing the words you have cancer are scary.

5 weeks post double mastectomy and I am doing well! I have been back in the office for a few weeks now even with the Dr repeatedly telling me to take it easy! THIS IS ME taking it easy!! It has been tough, sleeping is not easy and I am doing everything I can to make it better. I am a side sleeper and to have to sleep comfortably on your back for 6 weeks hasn’t been fun. I accidentally pulled out one of my drains way too early and that granted me a week of not using my right arm at all. I have become quite ambidextrous. Eric has been a great care taker!

As for what is left. I have physical therapy to be able to raise my arm enough for radiation. I am getting immuno therapy infusions every 3 weeks till October 30th, (not like I am counting LOL). 15 Rounds of radiation, start date TBD (trying to get them to move it up) and then finish off the year with reconstruction. So still a fight to be had! But I am ready for it. AND the hardest part is behind me.

God is teaching me and molding me to be ready for what He has in store for my life. I am so thankful. Once you have had toxins pumped through your body to kill the cells that are trying to kill you, you can do anything. Those things that seemed so big before are not so big now.

I will keep writing, who knows about what!

I will leave you with this: Be careful what you say when under anesthesia, or at least who hears it HAHAHA