Even here, I walk in love.

I know I touched on this in my last post but I feel like it may need it’s own space. It is great to feel good! I mean almost “normal”. Really I am so thankful that I can do daily tasks, taste food, have a lot of my energy back. BUT knowing Tuesday is coming is hard. I keep telling myself at most I have 5 days of feeling not so great and then it starts to turn. I can do 5 days. I can do it. At this point I need to remind myself I have more good days than not so good days. I even got to go to Florida with my family last weekend to see Emma and Sam and hang out with Sam’s family. Squirrel moment. . . Can I tell you how amazing it is to pray for your kid’s future spouses and then God brings the most amazing man into Emma’s life? We had 2 special days with Sam and his family and we just meshed together so well. We shared meals, games, a walk, some basketball and a time of prayer. That is special. Thank you guys! Ok back to the in between. I almost forget I am sick, until i look at my calendar and see 27 appointments LOL.

Then comes Tuesday. Levels don’t look great, but thankfully I am still feeling well even though my levels say different. My friend Candy came with me. We met with my Oncologist went over a lot of things and then came infusion. All went well and we were even out of there by 2:30.

Sunday’s sermon gave me lots to think about when it comes to the journey I am going through. The first part is was tempted to give into fear. For me I went into chemo with the mindset, I’ve got this, no big deal right? Then it is like, wait did I really need to do this, was there no other option? Yes I needed to do it and it is the best option for my future. Pastor Russ was talking about the life of David, Caves, Crowns and Character from 1 Samuel 22-24. He talked about having integrity in the process, God being honored in the end product but also in the process. I want to honor God through this journey. He said Rest in God’s providence, Trust Him for His grace, God uses our Wilderness season to forge our character. I know God is going to use this time to do big things and He has a bigger and better plan than I could ever think or imagine. What is God teaching you in your season? Wilderness, mountain top, valley, where ever you are? God will use it.